Yeah...the title explains my current feeling. My mind is empty now, empty as in I am totally unprepared for exam, and this time trials. GOD, its a serious matter yet I am still keeping my mind empty. I have tried to study, or at least scan through some notes. I just cannot stare any longer at my book, not even the second second. Even having myself to actually LOOK at it for the first second makes me feel proud. My mind is about blow, yes I know I have mentioned it is empty inside. Literally it is empty, but the fact tells me that it is full of irrelevants, to study of course. All I can conclude is that, it is empty yet about to erupt. Empty, erupt. No empty, erupt. No exam, no erupt. Mindfucked aren't you? Doesn't matter, I am too all the time.
Enough with the frustrating stories, I shall move on to something that unfucks my mind. A massive congratulations to myself! I have passed my driving license. ( not trying to be LOA but hey, it is something worth sharing. ) Sadly, my parents do not allow me to drive alone, and the only permitted passengers are them as well. That means I cannot bring anyone out until both of my coaches are satisfied with my performance. Too bad... Trust me, it does not last long. I'm going to be professional in no time! :D
Hmm...nothing special lately, everything seems to be fine as usual. Oh ya, the holidays. Though I spent most of the time in front of the computer, went out few times for badminton and many thing else that keep myself away from study, I do not find time is being wasted. At least I had fun. That is the main reason for having us living on this world I suppose. Only study when you find it is a joyful thing to do though it turns our mood down all the time. Even thinking about it makes me lose my enthusiasm in starting any non-study related task. GAAAH I mentioned study again.
Well, I feel like speaking with my heart now, trying to let out my inner voice. Wouldn't feel this post is complete without a deep expression. From the outside, I would look like 'whatever' or maybe putting a smile on the face, trying to tell ' I don't care what people say.' But the inside ( yes, you expected this right? ) , I do really care a lot about how others think about me. I therefore admit, I am easily offended, even by the slightest teaser. Or maybe something harmless can be eventually harmful to me. I'm not sure whether is this a matter of sensitivity or what, but every word you speak, I do take it seriously. Not trying to ask you to be careful with your words, on the other hand I truly want to listen to your opinion about me. Just speak pressurelessly :) YEAH! It is complete now. Anyeong! :x
